Depression.


My Thoughts ran back  to some more years before. Somedays, sometimes, some moments just made me moody, filled with sadness. I cannot think how I feel this, it is just like entering inside me without any permission, like a stranger. Like an uninvited guest. I couldn’t accept it nor I couldn’t welcome it. I sat in the corner of my room and just sat still, I cannot do anything. I couldn’t be as the way I was before. That time I realized, Yes! I feel depressed thinking this made me more depressed. 


The article which I read before were running inside my brain, like the words flying here and there inside my thoughts. Some words were highlighted and I could think clearly. It said like,’ The gray drizzle of horror’ by William Styron. At this moment I could be able to understand why he compared depression to this phrase memorably. 


It is the horror which makes everything, surrounding us into whole darkness. Some people can manage it as a temporary darkness but mostly, most of the ones enter into it as a permanent darkness. Now I can hear my mind’s echo, that ‘You are also in this state and the beginning level’. I heard my heart beat increasing whether I may also become a victim inside this devil of darkness. 


I wiped my tears in my eyes which was running down from my eyes to cheeks.”Tears are weightless but it carry heavy feelings with it” I remember it at once.


Loneliness, discrimination,hopeless,aggressive and specially for women ,the Pregnancy, child care,workstress all these lead them inside to horror world. I also experienced one of them. Forgetting about my sorrows, I moved to feel the views from a women, her troubles, problems, depressful moments.


Yes, we all know that she is the Milestone. She has lots of ‘Untold stories’ inside her, keeping all of them locked inside her mind as the safe locker. 

A woman has lot of problems in her personal and public life. Her duel life makes her a prey to the darkness of horror.


Many reports clearly say that woman, girls, and teenagers are mostly affected with this mental disorder, in their lifetime.

Every one of us are the reason for this , I feel ashamed to tell this. There can be a well-respectful person too who respects women and support them. I really respect them. 


When a girl borns and until she gets the age to start her married life,her farther, the first hero of a girls life secures her. He sacrifice his life to save her. Even though a woman can solve any problems by her own, as she is multi-talented, she also needs a support to move on her. 

Like that way, the father who is like a wheel to her takes her to the successful life she loves.


Then the, most important part of her lifetime comes to her, the marriage which helps to start her own life to complete her responsibilities fully. 

Her partner plays a major role in the next part of her life. Her partner should be more supportive with her, he has to be with her in every single second. He has to motivate her and also has to love her more than everything. She doesn't say anything out as she has so many expectations from her partner. Most successful woman are not alone. We say that ‘there is a girl behind every mans success’. But like that way, "There is also a supportive partner behind every successful, happy girl." This is a stable truth. Happiness can make everything change in a single minute. 

So, I think if a woman gets a supportive partner and a best father she is blessed. The perfect guidance from her father and the encouragement from her partner can be the best solution for her to close the ways to the darkness of horror, “The depression.


I throught all these in my mind and got up from the corner. The best father, the supportive partner never let her depressed. But there are also woman, those who do not have the chance to get such relationships. This is hard to say but it is the main reason here.


Again my thought moved on to the girls who suffer alone day by day. But just think the fact.The life time period we are going to live is short. We face a lot of people everyday. In a very short time period, We have a lot of responsibilities and many targets to achieve. Just sitting in a corner and stressing ourselves for a problem which has been over is meaningless. I know that it is really hard to be alone, without any of the loved ones near us. But we should try to overcome from that. Every struggles we face now, is for our better life tomorrow. 


This thought in my mind made me more stronger and stronger. Growing a hope again inside my mind, I decided to move on. I am always sure that the things which belong to us will come to us in the perfect time.


I came to my garden. The butterflies which was flying up of the flowers were like my problems which were flying from me. Every flowers, I saw were smiling at me. It was like welcoming me to a new life and like congratulating me to overcome from my depression. I saw my kitten named as Zimba running towards me. The surrounding were beautiful. I felt relaxed.


At that time only i felt, how stupid I was.  I abused my self in to the situation which is meant for nothing. I thanked god to make me stronger once again.


Many years have been passed now. These moments came to my mind. Once again I thanked god, to secured me without taking any wrong decisions.

Now at this moment, I have got a job which was my dream and the efforts I put now have given me this happy life. I am very happy to share my experience here to my friends. I am glad that this can help even one of my friend who is suffering from depressive moment now.


So, Friends, just believe me, just forget whatever problems you have, believe god and try the happiness which is going to come near you in some more years like I experienced. Keep a step froward and make yourself proud in this mission. 


Once again keep in your mind, don’t get trapped in this depression mood as it is the way to the “darkness of horror”